Some days I want to cry. I can't control it. The overwhelming feeling of being so far away from home sneaks up on me.
How am I supposed to do my taxes from three different jobs spanning two different countries for the US tax year that is different from Australia's tax year? It would be easier if I never left Illinois.
Why do I have to remain patient and calm when my landlord is negligent? It would be easier if I never left Illinois.
Why are my family and friends asleep when I want to chat with them after work? It would be easier if I never left Illinois.
Why do I have to apply to change my name with two different countries, two states and two jobs? It would be easier if I never left Illinois.
How many Christmases, Thanksgivings, Birthdays, soccer games have I missed? It would be easier if I never left Illinois.
In my slump, I struggle to get the daily chores done after a full day of work. I walk outside to take out the trash. It's dark by 6:30, so I walk by the moonlight. And then I notice it... The moon isn't out.
It's the Milky Way.
This is why I left Illinois.
I had never seen the Milky Way until I left the US. Sure there are spots where you can travel to in order to see a great night sky in the states. But I get to see it every time I bring the trash out.
Experiences like this are why I left Illinois.
I love being an expat. I may not be one forever, but this is an incredible life.
Tomorrow I will try again.
** Disclaimer: This photo is not the view outside my front door. I am practicing my night photography skills. As of yet, I do not have anything from our house. This is a photo I took while on the Great Ocean Road in Victoria.
For photos of the night sky in the Blue Mountains, check out Karl Lindsay's work. Stunning!